I just wanted to take a moment to write to you from the heart. It often feels like life is much too busy to really slow down and just take it in. For me, this causes raging emotions of being overwhelmed; like you’re drowning in all of life’s demands. Often times I feel like I’m playing catch up, like things move so fast that I never seem to quite get that to-do list done.
Before I know it, I start to judge myself based off of those feelings of “falling short,” I feel like I’m not accomplishing all that I should be, gaining the ground that I’m racing so hard to cover, or even measuring up to my expectation of where I want to be. It is from this place that I wrote my first prayer for mothers. I know you have a million decisions to make, and you’re expected to know “what’s best,” but it’s okay to not know it all, and to depend on God for help. His word tells us that we should acknowledge him so that He can direct our paths (Proverbs 3:6).
To give further context, I recently lost my father at the end of June, this year. I really cannot describe in words how heartbroken I am that he’s no longer here with me. I constantly battled with feeling like he’ll never get to see the peak of my accomplishments as a daughter, a wife, mother, minister or businesswoman. I thought that I would have him here to share in my major accomplishments of achieving my dreams; but in a more real way, of just becoming the woman I’m meant to be. I began to feel ashamed, like in some way I hadn’t shown him that what he instilled in me was working.
Then I started to reflect on all of our conversations, especially some of our last. I shared with him how his example of faith help to stabilize me as a woman of faith in my family, for my husband and children. He told me that he thought I was a wonderful mother to my children and a great wife to my husband. He told me how proud he was of me and that he loved to hear me preach. Just the thought of those times, and his words help me to know that whether or not he saw my “end results” literally, he knew and trusted that I would get there. That’s why he made the effort to let me know what he thought I was doing right; to encourage me to keep going.
I think that’s the point of it all. That you may not see the full picture, you may not be where you want to be, but stay on the right path. As long as you stick to it, you’ll get to that expected end. To those of you who are believers, know that where you are right now is a precious part of your process toward progress and production. Your fruit will show in it’s due season, it’s God’s principle (Galatians 6:9).
You’re not defined by your present situations, but how you respond to them. You may go through many seasons and transitions before you “get there”– keep going. Every experience is bringing something out of you, some things that you never knew were there. Know that God knows and cares about the way that you take, He’ll see you to the end. Be encouraged and keep going, your path is ordered.
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